SLEEPING BEAUTY / VOICE OF THE SILENCE / TRAVEL OF LOSING COUNTRIES

Such a triumphal outcome white mother! That silent way of saying goodbye! The loudest silence I’ve ever met ... in silence or in the dead of the night, without the applause of this mortal world you moved yourself away...

Time only teaches what is likely to be learnt...

We’ve got - osmosis - and experience at our disposal.

To get practical experience one must be involved.

However, - osmosis for example, is the means by which the intelligence of the living cells in our bodies makes us function as people. These are perfect workers which require no conscious effort on our part.

Nevertheless, as extraordinary as - osmosis is, it can never be gained from experience! So when these cells, by the same osmosis that remained them active decide to stop altogether, we can neither follow them up nor make them kick again.

There’s no osmosis that could help us get rid of the pain caused by the loss of someone so dear. So loved.

And when these applauses arrived -  in the morning ... when the noises came across, you had already left! This makes you even worthier. Really - only someone like you!

Your motto was - giving and supporting - and you did it with such a continuity that leaves no doubt about your character.

You left without howls.

And we found you so static, already inserted in yourself, well within your journey of losing countries and become another constantly ... as Fernando Pessoa says!



Together ... We yelled!


I look around me and everything seems to be where it has always been.


I think about the geographical distance which used to separate us - London - Faro - Rua Infante D. Henrrique!


All deserted from your person. All deserted of your presence. All deserted of your life! All deserted of your steps...
The air that you stopped breathing, feels weirder, denser and moves with tremendous difficulty...

I know this from the various conversations that we had!

You wanted to walk around here for another five hundred ... for another seven hundred and fifty times.

But life... made this decision for you and secretly took you in such haste.

All in accordance with agreements completely unrelated to humanity...


There’s no osmosis to avoid the pain caused by the tremendous loss that we’ve experienced on December 31, 2010! There’s none! Maria Manuela Alexandre dos Santos.


But we have a consolation! we are splendidly blessed to have been part of your life and your wonderful experience.

And...

We promise to carry out everything that we’ve learned from you and with you...

To love without boundaries and always be willing to lend a hand...

To my dear white mother, Maria Manuela Alexandre dos Santos.